Alysin

my moms a crack whore

2001-10-14T16:19:40Z

Ive been so freaking busy lately i went to a show yester dayit was awsome..we went and got pizza while sgr was on and thisguy gave uspiza gobblin stickers itwas kick ass...bleh...so many ppl were there...ahh this kid i went to kidnergarten with was there..and just random weird ppl i felt like ive seen some where else before.there are alot of shows coming up...hmm.................................................................there were these girls i really wanted to kill...they were like omg punk guys are soo hot...i wanted to kick em!!! grrrr! im scraping paint off my phone im always doin weird shit to it.

hmm

2001-10-10T18:36:28Z

hmm well i havnt had much to say lately and ive been soem what busy...the show at the tla was so fun and funny...me and jess thought we saw one nut..and when i was looking at the band list thing dont let go was play but we didnt get to stay and see if they went on or if they even were there who knows...omg! we thought my cat got killed cuz she like ran away and this guy thought he herd a cat screaming in the woods well i was ip stiars doing my make up and stuff getting ready to go out and i herd a meow..i almost peed my self cuz i thought the cat was comming to haunt my house or some thing...but then i started calling her name really low cuz i didnt want my mom to hear me and think i was insane..so then i herd it again so i yelled for my mom to come up stairs and she opend up a cabnet and there she was...i always open and never shut them and when my mom was cleaning my room and guest room she shut them..not knowing the cat was in there..i thought she was stuck under the water bed cuz we got a king size water bed in there so i was flippin...my mom was so happy..i think i should get a kittin now for it..hehehe.

the closest thing to perfect but farthest thing from me...

2001-10-04T18:10:59Z

I want to do some thing...i don't know what tho.yuck i hate hbo ive been messed up now cuz they showed old ppl naked...now thats crossing the line...yuck.I want some one to live with me besides y parents..im feeling alone..i want/need some one here..NOW!grrrrrr ive been having weird weird messed up thoughts lately...i cant even bare to type them...but i have to tell jess...shes going to die laffing.cuz its so like random..omg they are so weird lol

alysinhxc @ 2001-10-04T13:31:00

2001-10-04T17:55:04Z

1. What's one thing you wish you could do but can't?hmm...not be a bitch?
3. What is your ideal marriage location? On th beach in spring or fall when with the sun seting and be bare foot!
4. Which musical instrument do you wish you could play? drums.
5. What's your favorite sexual position?
6. Favorite fabric? cotton
7. Something you love and hate? i hat to love.and love to hate.
8. What kind of bedding do you use? cotton??
9. What kind of soap do you use? Bth ad bdy works pamaria...or herbel ecssence body wash.
10. Do you tell your friends about your sex life? its none exstent so how can i ?
11. What's the one language you want to learn? German
12. How do you eat an apple? i cut it up andpu carmel on it.
13. What do you order at a bar? i am only 16
14. Have you ever pierced your body parts? yessim
15. Do you have tattoos? going to soon.
16. Would you ever admit to having done plastic surgery of any kind if confronted? no.
17. What's one of the "funnest" things you've ever done? hmm fighting wit jessica(sand fights wish i won! uhmloton fights and soda fights)
18. Do you drive stick? no
19. What's one trait you hate in a person? I HATE fakes
20. What's the soonest that you've slept with someone (or hypothetically)?
21. What kind of watch(es) do you wear? i dont have a watch but i need one
22. Most frivolous purchase? um mae pat the dollar store
23. Do you consider yourself materialistic? nope
24. What do you cook the best? hmm..
25. Favorite writing instrument? black pen
26. Do you prefer to stand out or blend in? i like to stand out
27. Do you have anything monogrammed? and that means what?
28. Would you ever go out dressed like the opposite sex? when i gt my se change ill have to lol.
29. What`s one car you will never buy? a beetle
30. Have you ever done drugs? dont live in the past.
31. What kind of books do you like to read?hmm all kinds.
32. If you won the lottery, what would you do first? pee my pants
33. Burial or cremation? one of those above ground things.
34. How many online journals do you read regularly?a few
35. What's one thing you're a sore loser at? LOVE
36. If you don`t like a person, how do you show it? ill be nice..then be a bitch...then be nice..then be a bitch..then be nice then pick on them then .....whatever happens happens.
37. How many drinks before you're tipsy?
38. Favorite kind of porn? midget lmao
39. Do you have problems changing clothes in front of friends? depends on who it is.
40. Do you cry in front of friends? yessum
41. What kind of first impression do you think you give to people? haha i need to be i a straight jacket.
42. What's one thing you like to do alone? think
43. What's the worst thing you ever said to someone?omg this is sad..ive said so many hurtfull things...
44. Are you a giver or a taker? both
45. What have you stolen before? yeah
46. When's the right time to go to the bathroom in front of your significant other? never
47. Favorite communication method? any way thats possible?
48. What is one thing you don't leave home without? bracelets
49. How often do you have sex? never
50. What's the most painful experience you've ever had? being in love...wanting some one you cant have....and getting scrachd in my eye by my cat when i was littl.

bored.

2001-10-04T05:01:53Z

1. if there were 3 wells (love, beauty and creativity) and you could only drink from one, which would drink from? eh toss up between creativity and love...but im pretty creative..and no one loves me...so love!

2. with problems, whom do you run to? It depends on what it is.

3. which finger is your favorite?(my mind is so sick)..my middle finger!

4. what's the most disgusting thing you've ever eaten?
anchovies
5. would you kill someone? Depends.I feel guilty to much so most likely no.

6. if yes, why? To many to pick from..is that bad?

7. if you were making a movie about yourself, who would play the lead? Myselfe...No one could be as good as me.

8. do you like your handwriting? its of a 5 year old lol

9. who are you jealous of? No one.

10. what kind of person do you want to marry? Some one who is some what like me...not superfical..sweet nice and caring...(awww) uhm..some one who i dont want to kill...and just some one i can laff with..and have fun.

11. unluckiness? much so.

12. what do you put on your sandwiches? turkey.

13. do you think people on the Gap commercials are cool? Homosexuals possibly?

14. If you were another person, would you be friends with you? Im know really sure.Cause i don't know how other ppl see me and how others see you and how you see your self are two totally diffrent views.from they way i see my self no i wouldnt..and from what others say about me..wed be best friends lol

15. are you a daredevil? Yes.

16. how big was the biggest mango you ever ate? Uhm i dunno?

17. have you ever told a secret you swore you'd never repeat? MMMM most likely.

18. what do you think is the most attractive animated character? bugs bunny

19. do looks matter? if they look like a dork ill love em forever!

20. color? Is the question "What's your favorite color?" Silver

21. do you pray?Sometimes...

22. are you trendy? Nope.but if i like some thing that becomes trendy im doing going to stop liking it just cuz of that im going to do what makes me happy...and im not anti trendy...cuz isnt that tredny too?

23. what do you do to prevent anger? hit things...kick holes in my door...hmm i think im on my 5 door so far...kick in closet doors and throw them at mymom down the steps along withcrdless phones..i have anger issues.

24. who is your idol? Myself.
25. who is your second family?Jessicas i guess lol

26. do you trust others easily?Not really...they have to earn it.

27. what was your favorite toy as a child? polly pocket.

Hmmm im going to hurt some one.

2001-10-04T04:38:42Z

ok guys are morons...if they "love" you so much why he hell would they go out and fuck to other girls??????? i dont get it it all! he is the biggest moron and douche bag ever...."they are just sex ojects just for pleasure"....well you know what when you love some one and they love you back just there is a great feeling of pleasure...and it doesnt even have to be sex! just being in love thats all......why go out and fuck random ppl.when you can just wait till the day you find that one right person who means more then anything to you and just be with them..you know how much better that has has to be.........AHHHHHHH! i hate ppl i really do..im going to get a tent or tralior or some thing an go live on an island or in the jungle..cuz ive truely had it.

alysinhxc @ 2001-10-03T17:29:00

2001-10-03T21:34:22Z

I get urges...energy urges..its weird..ill be al tred bout to fall over then im jumping off the walls and acting like a freakin A.D.D CHILD! lol...there was a women at the store to day and she was making me made.....i wanted to rip her face off.i dont know why....i got a cow snap braclet..i dont know why either.........AHHHHHHH!hyerness! WHY MUST I FEEL LIKE IM ON CRAAAAAAAAACK!im going.bye.

"Im not crazy cuz i take the rite pills eeevery day"

2001-10-01T16:19:19Z

ladadedadeda....day afyer dayyyyy i ge angery and i will say that the day is at my side when i thiabout and say good night oh my mo homy mo..i love the violent femmes...and jus down loaded all my fav songs.....wopppppe!.....Im o hyper..my dad got me this energy drink..and i chuged it cuz it tasted so bad.ive had to much caffine lately...and im not supose to take it cuz its has a reallllly bad effect on me like i get sooooooooo hyper!like you wouldnt belive ..its like whoa..ya know?some whod care to love could it be you coul it be you? lol hmm i love music...kiss of in to the air...hehehehehem mwahahahaha grrrrr...So i figured out that i dont need to fall inlove..im fine just rite now..so...who knows maybe it will show up when i dont expectit or maybe ive already found the person an just dont know it yet hmmm...im so happy i don know why either....grrraawww....we were on the way home from the doctors and and there was adog runnin down the street i made m mom stop and the poor hing was soooooo cute and he as skinny as a stick i felt so bad for him...well we found the place he lived and i knew the ppl who live there and they are really scummy hillbillys they have like 30 kids...i think there all from incest...and the dog didnt wanna get out of the car but my mom made him and there was a really pretty golden retrever...i wanna steal them i feel so bad..hmmmmm im head o the class im popular...lalalala i like this song..my mom says i look cash im popular...lol kkiiiiiillll meeeee.hmm i havnt stoped drinking soda for..like 20 hours...hmmm..i love being a dork.......yea yea..lol..hmm hmm...i wanna go live in a jungle..and have a pet monkey and a snake and a lion...and just live in a tree..and have my own little lake to live in....i use to be so weird when i was a kid..i still am but i dunno..i use to go in my field and act like i was hding...or i would dig and act like i was trying to find dinousore bones..or id throw dirt all over my play house and wash it off...i was odd.i wanna climb thehigh tention wires in my back yard...that would be so sweet..im gunna do it one day...i just remmeberd some thing lol..i hd a tralior that i use to put down the shore and in the winter wewould keep it in my yard..and me and jess would go hang out in there and we would take the one bunk bed csion off and put it on the floor then between the two top bunks we wound put sheets and would climb up there and sit on them and fall on the the cousion...lmao..it was so funny..and then we would be lik yeah when we turn 16 weregunna move in here. it as sooo funny..then anothe time we were down the shore and there was a big storm and the eltric went out so we were walking to the kitchen and my mom kinda just poped up and me and jess jumped on the sofa bed and were like fipping out..its wasss so funny.anywho im out of here.late.

orange soda

2001-09-30T19:56:44Z

ok well jess wont stop hitting on me...shes like i dont like girls to hug me...just allison...N....im going to pee my pants i drank so much soda....im going to take pics when i go to the mall ...........mwahahahahahahahahahaha

alysinhxc @ 2001-09-30T15:11:00

2001-09-30T19:17:09Z

HardcoreNJGurl [3:01 PM]: im pissin

HardcoreNJGurl [2:41 PM]: IM NOT UR SEX SLAVE

2001-09-30T18:59:12Z

I was just reading this thing.......ive mad alot of typos.

hmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm

2001-09-29T15:54:44Z

I went to the mall last nite..it was uhm fun?lol every one i saw called me midgit seeing eye dog...isnt that nice? oh well its all good every one was in hottopic..and all.hmm..i got new bracelets and kick ass eye make up.i bet all these little bitchy girls start wearin jellys.......il get pissed....i kept going to spencers..... :)omg it was soooooooo funny me and jess were waiting for some one at the enterance..and this wigge guy wit a head thing on went by and we started cracking up at him and he just lookedat us and started laffing then he came back and we started to laffing again....then he came ove rand hes like do you "ladies" mind if i ask you something...i was like ugh no..and he was like every time i walk pat some one they always seem to laff at me..and i was just cuiros to why?...hmm well there was alot i wated to say but didnt i was just like uhm were hyper sp were lffing at everyone..then he asked if wewere waiting for boy friends i said yes to get him to go away...then then OMG lol ok we werestanding there wit our friends and this kid came up to us and he like hi and he said his name was dave...and all and jess told him who we are...ten he said he went to lenape..i was like wowhe looks like the kid from summer schol...(cuz i aw him in the hallway and he was as short as me and had bracelets) and hes like i went to summer school and i almost pissed my self...he is the cutest guy ive ever seen...i think he may be gay tho...hmmmm.o well i had fun.anywho im out.

alysinhxc @ 2001-09-26T12:43:00

2001-09-26T16:55:06Z

wow i am extreamly cold rite now i jus love how my mom opens all the windows whens its like zeo degrees out...and i just got the hell freaked outta be by a squeirl he was walking on the fence and i was getting a drink of water and for some reasson he looked bigger then he was..last nite i could barely sleep i kept on hearing things in my attic....and i have this coca nut heads and its really freaky and every one tells me that those things have curses on them...and i was dreaming so weird stuff to...i had a dream my mom took me and my dad to this familys house and we were allowed to take whatever we wanted i took like gap pants lol (i think its cuz i changed in to really ugly gaps pants b4 i went to bed cuz i was cold) and she had a kittin and i took her lizard..it was odd..then o had another dream that my friend was over my house and my mom punished me and i was putting my bracletts on and he was driving my go cart but my go cart turned in to a really old white car....then ANOTHER dream was like i dunno...its was a dating game kinda thing..but i wasnt in it...some kid i know was and this girl she was like really weird looking she had like 3 eyes and a extreamly big nose well anyway my friend was in the dating game with her and we were on a boat and he kinda jus pushed her off lol and that was my dream i swear im so messed up.

alysinhxc @ 2001-09-25T16:37:00

2001-09-25T21:00:16Z

no matter how they toss the dice its me and you,you and me so happy togther bababababababababa were so happy together.......omg im losing my mind! oldie music is some what good i like those corny love songs..ok this one song sucks lol..ont give your sweet kiss away ...save it for me...i know your feelin blue cuz i feel you...dont waste that look i adore save it for me...hm i wonder what these ppl were smoking lol! my dads at jessicas measuring windows i didnt feel like going cuz i havnt gottin a shower in awhile i think i should bring my self to get one..once i ran to you now i run from this tainted lovin you given i give you all gurl could take my tears andd oooh tainted love now i know ive got to run ive go to get away from you...you need some one to hold you toight and you think love is to pray and sorrie i dont pray that way once i ran to you know i ran from you........ooooooooooooooooooooo tainted love oo ooo ooo lol..dont touch me please i cant stand the way you tease i love you but i cant ..i dunno..lol...i love this song..touch me baby tainted lol...do do do do do babybaby where did our love go oh baby dont leave me no more i got this burnin yearnin feelin in side me deep inside me it hurts so bad i came in to my love so taintedly...and now that im surundred so heplpellesly ooh baby baby where did our love go o dont you leave me dont you leave me no more...where do our love go? lol BOY GEORGE ROCKS!!!!!! lol...omg i made so many typos...i cant wait till the 8th and the 13th..shows YAY! omg i cant wait its gunna be so sweet...yes lol...me and jess are gunna save money to get a taxie so we can go to six flags every nite.ok im leavin now bye.

hmmm

2001-09-24T22:13:54Z

Well ya know those last few e mail things i posted well i ended up feeling bad and i wrote to him and stuff and like dunno..some times i think im a bitch well actually i am a bith this i do know..i cant bealive some of the things i do...just words i say to keep some one in my life..when im not really sure if i mean it or not....like this..

"I do love you,always have any always will no matter what no matter what I say or how hard I try to deny it I just cant anymore. I know I fucked things up this time. I know you probably wont want to talk to me ever again, hell if I was you I would hate me, But like I said before IM sorry I put you threw all the things I did. I didn't mean to hurt you in anyway..even tho I did, and im sorry for it, but ill pay for it by loosing the best thing I ever had...you.."

and here is his thing back...

"if u think for one second that i wouldn't forgive after all that, then ur really crazy. oh my god aly, i can't tell u what i felt while i read that. u truly cease to amaze me. i have so much to say, and i wanted to express everythin in one email...but i need time to think about it. but i figured if i waited, u'd think i really wouldn't talk to u again, which isn't the case. so i'm writin this to tell u that i do love u, more then i could ever describe. and u haven't lost me aly. i'll be back, next time i'll say everythin. my emotion was so strong while i read ur email that i think a tear developed in my eye. i'm not one to cry EVER, and i didn't cry...but the fact that it got me emotional enough to water my eyes, then that's sayin somethin. i'll talk to u soon...i love u suga! i wanna give u a big kiss rite now. gnite hon."

i mean did i really mean what i said..or did i just say it to get my mind? hell if i know..i guess all that matters is that i made him feel better rite?its such a good feeling to have control over some one elses life its odd..i dunno..its a good feeling but then i dont know hmm

another one...

2001-09-23T23:40:33Z

1.FULL name: Allison leigh Scheirer
2.nicknames: Alysin allesin alyson cucumber and pumpkin.
3.where do you live: New Jersey
4.birthdate: 7.26.85
5.astrological sign: Leo
6.school: Shawnee
7.hobbies: Writting,painting,raves,shows.
8.sports that you play/enjoy: heh or not.
9.height: 5'3
10.weight: depends
11.shoe size: err like 5? i got small feet lol
12.right or lefty: Right

*What....*

1. What do you think of the way you look?:eh some times i wish i could change some thing about the way i look but o well its me and im gunna be this way so its all good.
2. What do you think about your attitude?: I can be a bitch and totally reck ppls lives and be a total drama queen then at other times im totally passive and shy..
3. What do you think about life after death?: Maybe?
4. What do you think about karma?: nice to think about
5. What do you think about love?: I think its a great thing and i good feeling but it can also cuz alot of un wanted bs
6. What do you think about fate?: Strongly belive in it.
7. What do you think about your self?:I think im pretty smart..maybe a little to grown up for my age and knows more then alot off ppl i tend to be lazy and not care about anything wich is some thing i need to fix
8. What do you tell yourself if times get hard?: Why....? i complain...lol
9. What would you give your life for?: Anyone who i care about.
10. What do you think about your first love?:eh well it was nice while it lasted..but i dont know if he was my "first" love cause ive never been in love with anyone else or had feelings for anyone else like him i expect things in love department to get better maybe with a little time.
11. What do you think about the first person that loved you?: He was err nice?
12. What are you scared of?: being alone,getting old and being alone,bees,large crowds.
13. What was the saddest moment of your life so far?:Im not sure.
14. What would life be without friends?:hmmm..better?
15. Without family?: Alot better...

*The Dream Side of You*

1.Do you dream a lot at night?:Yup
2.Do you dream in black and white, or color?: color.
3.Do you remember any of your dreams?: Some.
4.Where is your dream make out spot?:On the beach under a full moon.
5.What is your dream kiss like?:Meaningfull...
6.What is your dream job?: to work with kids.
7.Where is your dream house?: it will be the perfect little white and blue house right on the beach
8.Where is your dream vacation?: Germany.
9.Do you believe that your dreams are a gateway to your soul?: Some can be.And some may just be the trash in your mind.

*Family*

1.Parents names: die die
2.Do you live with both of them?: Yes,but i wish they would divorce
3.Any siblings?: nope.
4.Do you get along with your siblings?:
5.Do you get along with your parents?: Mom sometimes...dad sometimes but i try my hardest not to be around him

*Do you...*

1.Do you write in a journal or diary?: Yup
2.Do you keep an organizer?: No.
3.Do you believe in love at first sight?: Yes
4.Do you believe that every person has one soul mate: Yes, but i dont think every one ends up with there soulmate....
5.Do you believe in god?: I believe in something.
6.Do you believe in everyone (even the beyond helpless)?: no.
7.Do you believe in having a good education?: Yes.
8.Do you believe in horoscopes?: some what.its fun.
9.Do you believe in yourself?: Never.
10.Do you shower daily?: Yes.
11.Do you like this survey so far?: eh
12.Do you like the person that sent you this/posted this?: Only on the weekends.
13.Do you cry easily?: yes.
14.Do you believe in Heaven?:Yes,but not for me.
15.Do you believe in hell?: Yes and that one has my name.
16.Do you believe in reincarnation?: yes some what.

*Favorites*

1.favorite day of the week: Saturday.
2.favorite ice-cream: Chocolate
3.favorite movies: The goonies,human traffic,groove,
4.favorite actors:eh
5.favorite actresses: eh
6.favorite quote: i have many
7.favorite song(s): Can't pick.
8.favorite music groups: Dillinger Escap plan,Visions of disorder,Posion the well.
9.favorite music singers: ....
10.favorite holiday: Halloween
11.favorite season: Fall.
12.favorite colors: Silver black
13.favorite flowers: I dunno.
14.favorite book: eh
15.favorite school subject: Human Behaviors.

*When you hear ___ you think of..*

1.Baseball: tight pants? lol
2.Dog: Hair
3.Warm apple pie: ...
4.Socks: toes
5.Fish: bad bad mind ::smacks my self::
6.Nail: foot
7.Swimming: blue
9.Bologna: barf
10.Giant Eagle: evil
11.A nun: pitbull
12.The number 69: lamness
12.School: Suicide?

*Relationships*

1.boyfriend/girlfriend's name: Putting odds and end together rite now?
2.crush: jessie
3.where does that special someone live?: here.
4.things you like in the opposite sex: Talk..fight lol...pick on..."chill"
5.when was your first kiss: On a bus on the way home from skool
6.are you a virgin:
7.the most romantic words anyone has said to you was: there alot of things ppl have said but im not going to put it i highly doubt it was the truth.
8.which is more important- personality or looks?: Personality
9.first boyfriend/girlfriend: err i forget?

*Creative Q's*

1.If you had the choice to spin around the sun, or walk on the moon, which would you choose and why?: walk on the moon i dont wanna get to hot.
2.What color do you think best describes you and why?: every color kinda like a mood ring cuz im always in a diffent mood.
3.If you could be doing anything right now, what would you be doing: at spencers :)
4.Would you ever share your heart completely with someone else? Yes if i trusted them enough.
5.Which sense could you not live without, and why?:eh
6.Have you ever written on a mirror? If so what did you write?: i wrote you will die with red lip stick to scare a little kid lol
7.If you could change one thing you did in the last 24 hours, what would it be and why?:Uhm...blow some one off that i shouldnt have of beacause i started to think about it and it was mean ?
8.Do you prefer sleeping outside beneath the night sky, or your cozy bed : i like both.
9.What is the most beautiful thing in the world?: Being able to understand some thing.
10.Name one person whose changed your life for the better: ...you figure that one out...
11.What can someone do to you that would turn you on fully - physically or mentally - or both?: ............................
12.If you knew you were going to pass away within the next few days, what would be the last thing you say, and who would you say that to?: I would tell jess to kill her self so should would be with me lol and id call anyone whove ive hurt and say im sorrie?
13.What is one thing that can make you smile no matter what mood your in?:A dork
14.If you could meet anyone, past or present, dead or alive, who would you meet and why?: no one.
15.what makes you you?: Im allison.thats who i am and that what makes me me.

.........

2001-09-23T20:12:13Z

i wanna go to school i wanna go to school i wanna go to school...ahhh i havnt seen this one kid in like 2 weeks in going threw withdrawl! omg hes..just ugh..so pefect it makes me sick...i really like him alot.but i dont have the nerve to talk to him...what would he want to do with me? ive stalcked him for like maybe 7 years lol hes so perfect and he has the best smile ever all i have to do is see him and my day is perffect and jess always laffs at me when i see him cuz i just like glow with joy! and i get all giddy and happy and hyper...hes like my drug lol..i nneeddd too see him to have a good day and if i dont its just a waste of a day.hes soooo amazingly perfect..likes that best music..and all hes so hot and he wears ufos! lol im gunna shut up know.

Survey some one sent me

2001-09-23T19:54:11Z

01] What's your first name? Allison
[02] Middle name? Leigh
[03] Last name? Scheirer
[04] Nicknames? Al,Alysin,Alleson.
[05] Age? 16
[06] Sex? hmm female? but im gettin a sex change lol
[07] Birthday? July 26th
[08] Your sign? Leo
[09] Where do you live? New Jersey
[10] Do you have a boy/girlfriend? Yes no maybe?
[11] If so what's her/his name? ask meh
[12] Have you ever been in love? Yessum
[13] Who are/were your crushes? to many to name
[14] Do u have any piercings? Uhm had em getting em re done...eye brow..my rite ear done 5 times and my left done 4
[15] If so what do you have/want pierced? i unno.
[16] Do you have a tattoo or want one? Yup
[17] If so what kind and where?stars on wrist
[18] Where do you shop at the most? Some times the mall at shitty stores..wal mart(lol)..YEA FRUIT OF DA LOOM!...south street...
[19] What color is your hair? nasty blonde
[20] What color are your eyes?blue when i cry..green when im in the light..and grey at night time
[21] How tall are you? 5.2
[23] Do you smoke? nope
[24] Do your friends smoke? some
[25] Who are your closest friends? jess
[26] Who are your friends? hmm not sure if i have any real friends..and if you are one you know its you.
[27] Who are your best friends online? i unno.
[28] Do you like Bath & Body Works?dont get me started...that place is evil! JESS LOTION FIGHTS! CUCUMBER MELON lol
[29] Kind of shampoo and conditioner do you use? herble ecessnse? i messed that word up
[30] Is your hair short or long?getting really long
[31] Do you like to shop? some times
[32] What sports do you play? nope
[33] What turns you on? Squirels...
[34] What turns you off? some thing thats not a squerl
[35] What place do you go for fun? mall.skate park at the mall.shows.raves.
[36] What do you do for fun? raves shows paint try to wirte.
[37] How many phones do you have in your house? 6?
[38] How many TV's do you have in your house? 4
[39] What's your favorite foods? strawberrie and whip cream mmmmm
[40] Do you look like anyone famous? nope
[41] Do you think Ricky Martin is muy guapo (very handsome?) hell no
[42] Who are the most attractive people you know? everyones cute in there own way unless i hate em
[43] Are you a virgin? yes.
[44] Do you wish to be like your parents? hell no
[45] What cologne should a hot guy wear? eh..that stuff smells bad.
[46] What are you listening to right now? hot water music
[48] How many hours per day do you spend talking on the phone? like 5-24
[49] Do you have your own phone line? yessum
[50] Have you ever kissed someone of the opposite sex? yes
[51] What are your favorite shoes? my ghetto sneakers
[52] What kind of clothes do you sleep in, if any? uhm boxers and a t shirt lol thats lame.
[53] What's your favorite soda? Cherry Mt dew.
[54] What things do you say a lot? Dork,like,moron,grr
[56] Who is the coolest person in the world? you
[57] Do you think you're weird or funny? weird yes..funny..looking?
[58] What would you pefer Thong or Bikini? my ass to big for any
[59] Who was the last person you called? i dont know..didnt pick up the phone
[60] Where do you wanna get married? on a beach
[61] Who is the hottest girl/guy in your school?Jessie..o baby..
[62] What are your favorite girl names? Kayla.
[63] What are your favorite guy names? Dustin,marcus,Devon
[64] What's your worst memory in the past 5 years? when ever i get really sick when im with jess and pass out lol its happend like 3 times.and spending time talking to losers.
[65] What's your favorite childhood memory? Being evil
[66] What is your favorite fast food restaurant? taco bell.
[67] Who do you really hate? wow to many.
[68] Do you have any brothers and sisters? nope
[69] If so, names?
[70] Do you have a pool? used too.
[71] Do you have a spa? no
[72] Are you stupid? my parents think so
[73] What are you addicted to? alotta stuff
[74] Do you like jewelry? yes alot hehe
[75] Who do you wish you were? No one.
[76] Who has it easier, boys or girls? Boys
[77] Would you rather be short or tall? Medium
[78] Do you like to dance? eh some times
[79] Do you like playing pranks on people? yes
[80] What's your least favorite subject in school? MATH
[81] What's your favorite subject in school? Human behaviors.
[82] What time is it? 3:17pm
[83] What college do you wanna go to? a good college
[84] What school do you go to now? Shawnee
[85] Do you have a Playstation or Nintendo64?yes both
[86] If so, what are your favorite Playstation or Nintendo 64 games? none?
[88] Whats your favorite radio stations? not really but that weird one me and jess like..that plays inidan lol
[89] Are you a night person? verry much so
[90] Are you a morning person? not at all
[91] Whats your favorite TV station? none
[92] Do you shave? lol thats all i got to say
[93] How often do you shower? every day
[94] Do you get along with your parents? No
[95] What room do you spend the most time in? Computer room. bed room.
[96] How many rooms does your house have? 8?
[97] What do you wanna be when your out of school? psychologist
[98] Do you curse a lot? some times when its called for
[99] Are you ticklish? yes
[101] What are you wearing right now? pj pants that are like really old and are really beat up and a black t shirt.
[102] Do you go to church? no
[103] Do you like the person who sent you this?Sometimes.
[104] Do you believe in God? yes?
[105] Do you like to watch PDA? no
[106] Do you show PDA? uhm?
[107] Do you believe in love at first sight? yup
[108] What color tooth brush do you use? red
[109] How many times a day do you brush your teeth? 2[110] Who is your favorite cartoon character? courage the cowerdly dog
[111] Do you have a job? no
[113] What's your favorite fruit? strawberries.
[114] What's your favorite veggies? carrots
[115] What's your favorite candy? gummie peinises! lol jess
[116] What was the best day of your life so far?i have alot.
[117] What are you gonna do today? nothing.make fun of ppl.
[118] Are you momma's little angel?nope
[119] Do you wear body spray? sometimes.
[120] Who is the sweetest girl? or not.
[121] Who is the sweetest guy? or not.
[122] Are you wearing nail polish now? nope i painted my nails with a black marker lol.
[123] If so, what color? ^^
[124] How many rings or necklaces do you own? lots
[125] Do you wear a watch? noperz
[126] Did/Do you have braces? yes
[127] Are you tired? nope
[129] Do you have freckles? ys fromt he freckin sun!
[130] What are you thinking right now? bout whos gunna read this.
[131] Are you having fun? no
[132] What time is it? 3:26pm
[133] Who makes you laugh? Morons.
[134] Who's your favorite teacher? lol or not.
[136] What is the best concert you have ever been to? many
[137] What is your favorite dream?lol lol lol lol oh my
[138] What is your worst dream? trying to scream and no one can hear you..or not getting the out come you want.
[139] Are you tired of filling this out yet? yes
[140] Who of your friends do you think will get bored with this? Im not gunna send it out.
[141] Who sent this lovely survey to you? a dork :/
[142] What's your worst memory as a little kid? when my mom sent me to my room to take a nap and i went and then all these bees were in there and i was screaming and she thought i was lieing till she came up stairs to yell at me and she saw them and like flipped..i got my way with alot of stuff for A few weeks after that.
[143] Bored yet?: yes
[144] Do you believe in Santa Claus? Yessum :)
[145] Do you believe in ghosts? err yes? lol

What's Better? Choose one or neither

[146] Rap or R&B? neither
[147] Pop or Rock? rock?
[149] Classical or Jazz? classical
[150] Hanson or Manson? Manson
[151] KoRn or 311? 311
[152] No Doubt or Garbage? Garbage.
[153] Jewel or Fiona Apple? Fiona apple
[154] Offspring or Nine Inch Nails? nin
[155] Sugar Ray or Tool? tool
[156] Backstreet Boys or 'N Sync: ::trys not to vomit::
[157] Joey McIntyre or Jordan Knight? Jordan Knight yes! new kids on the block! lol

Your Opinions

[158] What do you think about Boy Bands?they are all fake and should die.
[159] What do you think about Country?die?
[160] What do you think about Heavy Metal? Ok.
[161] What do you think about Rap? die.
[162] What do you think about R & B? yuck
[163] Do you think NKOTB are coming back? lol that would be funnie,

Yes or No or Eh :).

[164] Yes or No. Like Hanson? No
[165] Yes or No. Like *NSYNC? no
[166] Yes or No. Like Backstreet Boys? eww no
[167] Yes or No. Like KoRn? no
[168] Yes or No. Like Orgy? no
[169] Yes or No. Like Sugar Ray? no
[170] Yes or No. Like Metallica? no
[171] Yes or No. Like No Doubt? no
[172] Yes or No. Like Britney Spears? no
[173] Yes or No. Like Aaron Carter? no
[174] Yes or No. Like B*witched?no
[175] Yes or No. Like Joey McIntrye?i was in love with him when i was 4
[176] Yes or No. Like Jordan Knight? no
[177] Yes or No. Like Busta Rymes? no
[178] Yes or No. Like Offspring? not really
[179] Yes or No. Like Ricky Martin? yuuck no
[180] Yes or No. Like Coolio? ..is he alive?
[181] Yes or No. Like Janet Jackson? no
[182] Yes or No. Like Spice Girls? YES!!lol
[183] Yes or No. Like All Saints? no
[184] Yes or No. Like C-Note? who?
[185] Yes or No. Like 98*? no
[186] Yes or No. Like 5ive? who?
[187] Yes or No. Like TLC? no
[188] Yes or No. Like Take 5? No
[189] Yes or No. Like Moffats? No!
[190] Yes or No. Like Jennifer Love Hewit? no
[191] Yes or No. Like Dixie Chicks? No
[192] Yes or No. Like Mariah Carey? no
[193] Yes or No. Like EYC? who
[194] Yes or No. Like Brandy? no.
[195] Yes or No. Like Eminem? no
[196] Yes or No. Like Shaina Twain? no
[197] Yes or No. Like Monica? no.
[198] Yes or No. Like Mya? no
[200] Yes or No. Like Blessed Unions of Soul? no
[201] Yes or No. Like Bared Naked Ladies? no!
[202] Yes or No. Like Robbie Williams? Hes funnie and kinda cute in an odd way.
[203] Yes or No. Like Sixpence none the richer?no

[203 MORE] Yes or No. Like LIMP BIZKIT? no
[203a] Yes or No.. DO you like the Beach boys? no
[203b] Yes or no.. Do you like Def Leppard? eh no
[203c] Yes or no.. Do you like Whitesnake? lol no
[203d] Yes or no.. Do you like Queen? yup
[203e] Yes or no.. Do you like Elton John? no

Music..

[204] How many Cd's do you have? over 100
[205] What Cd's are in your CD player? the get up kids sick of it all and i dunno what else
[206] How many tapes do you have? a few of parnk phone calls me and jess made lol
[207] Do you own videos of your favorite group? no
[208] Do you record your favorite group when they're on tv? No
[209] Are you obbsessed with your favorite group/singer/band? sometimes
[210] What's the oldest group/singer you are still listening to? i dunno
[211] Are most of your friends music freaks? yep
[212] What do you think of the girls and the whole teeny bopper thing? fake
[213] Have you ever paid for a pay-per-view? no
[215] Do you ever buy merchandise of your favorite group? some times
[216] What TV station is better...MTV or VH1? none
[217] What is the worst show on MTV? all
[218] What is the best show on MTV? none
[219] If you could marry any music person who would it be? WES BORLAND! he has ADD LOL!
[220] What is the worst CD you own? Aqua lol
[221] What's your favorite movie Soundtrack? groove and human traffic.

Friends..

[222] Friend(s) that looks most like you? dunno
[223] Friend(s) you go to for advice? i dunno
[224] Friend(s) you have the most fun with? jess
[225] Friend(s) you can do nothing with and still have fun with? jess
[226] Friend(s) you've dreamt about? lol
[227] Friend(s) you tell your dreams to? lol.
[228] Friend(s) you tell your secrets to? sercrets are dumb
[229] Boxers or briefs? boxerz(i cant belive he wears tighty whitys jess lol)
[230] Long or short hair? depends.
[231] Dark or blonde? both
[232] Tall or short? doesnt matter.
[234] Mr. Sensitive or Mr. Funny? both
[235] Good guy or bad guys? both
[236] Dark or light eyes? blue or green
[237] Hat or no hat? eh doesnt matter
[238] Ears pierced or no? hmm doenst matter
[239] Tan or fair? doesnt matter.
[240] Freckles or none? doesnt matter
[241] Stubble or neatly shaved? shaved!!
[242] Rugged outdoorsy type or sportsy type? eh neither?
[243] All american, homey G, or grunge? GRUNGE!:)
[245] Accent or American? accents are hot
[246] Mt. Dew or SURGE? mt dew
[247] McDonalds or Burger King? micky d
[248] Coke or Pepsi? pepsi
[249] Rather marry the perfect lover or perfect friend? perfect friend
[250] Sweet or sour? sour
[251] Chocolate or vanilla? chocolate
[252] Tea or coffee? coffee
[253] Sappy/action/comedy/horror? all of them
[254] Cats or dogs? dogz
[256] Cooler Ranch or Nacho Cheese? Nacho
[257] Mud or Jello wrestling? jello and mud
[258] With or without ice-cubes? With out
[260] Milk/Dark/White chocolate? milk
[261] Shine or rain? both
[262] Top or Bottom? lame.
[263] Favorite season? fall
[264] Strawberry or Cherry? cherry
[265] Skiing or boarding? boarding
[266] Biking or blading? GO CART! lol
[267] Cake or cookies? cookies..jessie want a cookie?
[268] Cereal or toast? cereal
[269] Car or truck? Cars
[270] Night or day? night
[271] Gloves or mittens? one white glove! lol
[272] Pager or Cell phone? cell phone
[273] Bunk bed or waterbed? Water bedd
[274] Chewing gum or hard candy? both
[275] Motor boat or canoe? moter boat
[276] Lights on or off? dimmed

What's your favorite?

[277] What's your favorite color? silver and black
[278] What's your favorite Number? dont have one
[279] What's your favorite Drink? hmm
[280] What's your favorite Animal? dolphins and monkeys
[281] What's your favorite Holiday? Holloween
[282] What's your favorite Quote? tomany.
[283] What's your favorite Sound? of water or rain lol
[284] What's your favorite Ice cream flavor? dunno
[285] What's your favorite Song Ever? blister in the sun
[286] What's your favorite Book? hmm
[287] What's your favorite Movie? the goonies!
[288] What's your favorite TV show? dont have one
[289] What's your favorite Radio station? dunno
[290] What's your favorite Place? my bedroom
[291] What's your favorite Game? the sims i like to kill em lol
[292] What's your favorite Scent? Plamria?
[293] What's your favorite Food? already said.
[294] What's your favorite Shape? Stars
[295] What's your favorite Texture? uhhh..
[296] What's your house gonna look like? not to small not to big nice and warm and homey lol
[297] Where are you gonna live? where even i end up
[298] How many kids do you want? 1-3

la de da de da

2001-09-23T15:52:36Z

I hate sleeping even tho i wanna be asleep for the rest of my life..i swear i have the most messed up dreams ever..it was me jess my mom dad and there friends on a plane we were going to florida to go on my boat that we had but my boat isnt in florida its down the shore so it was weird...then i had a dream where some one was trying to kill me and i kept on screaming for my mom and in my head i was thinking some one must hear me outside my dream and wake me up but it doesnt work like that i ended up getting stabed and killed oh joy rite? it was cuz i was up till 3 in the morning watching some thing on seriel killers...i love seriel killers...they are so diffrent..i wanna know how they think..but anywho yea my pigeion hes really kool.i hope he doesnt have bugs or some thing cuz ive been holding him alot my mom wants to take him back..she doesnt think theyll kill em..but they will i know they will..theres no way in hell shes takin this bird away from me lol i rrreeeaaaalllly want to go to the mall...grr...i need to see some ppl..hehe..omg im so mad my "guy" who worked at the wall is gone he kinda juss dissapeard..he was there over the winter..then i just started going again and he is gone like that bam jus gone..well i sold out to mtv the other day they had these really sweet glow in the dark jelly braclets ill just say i got em at k mart or some thing or the dollar store..ya the dollar store i really think they should start selling jellys there cuz it be really cheap and id by the store out i swear i have about 100$ worth of bracelts.i cant wait for hollween..i love it so much! like all the hay rides and haunted houses and SIX FLAGS lmao that was sooo funny last year even tho me and jess almost pissed our pants a few time.i was painting last night...it was ghetto painting to cuz i had to mix water with a few of em cuz they were empty......hmmmmm...last year me jess and my mom went to a haunted hay ride house thing a ma jigg an we were walking threw the haunted house and my mom trppied lol and she pushed me in to these really hot guys i wanted to kill her but i dont think they mind to much cuz there was like a massive killer clown coming after us...i HATE clowns...ugh..they are so weiird.ive actually been in a good mood lately i dont know why i dont get my emotions to much..one minute all like laffing and havin fun then the next im liek go away i hate you then the next im all like crying and oh im so sorrie then im all happy again..i swear im an odd little girl..only a few ppl can put up wit they way i act hehe i can unserstand that if i was some one else i would hate me.

alysinhxc @ 2001-09-22T20:54:00

2001-09-23T01:09:31Z

heres an update on that last letter i posted..more..bull...crap.u don't ever get it. i don't need time to understand u...i need time to get through the emotional toll we went through. sorry but a period of healin doesn't happen over nite, and if it does then ur from another planet or somethin. to say ur gonna kill urself one day and then ur fine the next...that's a bit shady, a bit iffy. if it was a few days later, that would be different. i'm happy to see ur ok, but it's just so weird. i'm not mad...i'm frustrated, and i need to work out some things. please just respect that...if u blame me for taking everything u say to heart, then ur just doin the same. try to understand, and i'll talk to u...don't talk to me if u don't want, but this is a argument we're havin, a difference of opinion...don't throw away three years for this. love, me

ok well you know what...i dont care..i dont need him..nor want him..hes just another person done and over with in my life..he means nothing..i think..i dont care..i hope..i dont? well i told him im throwin it all out the window..so..i dunno i dont feel bad i dont feel like im going to be missing out on much..i mean he wasnt ever really hear for me..i got other friends better friend who mean more to me..and im not gunna bug out over him...

My mom thinks im going insane cuz i went for a car ride with her and i was fine..and then flipped out on her..when i got home and my dad starting getting involved and i just really hate my dad i cant stand him hes a manic depressive who flips his cork at the slightest things and i like to push it...so when he was yelling at me i kept on telling him to go take his meds and take a deep breath and i kept on telling him to keep a cool hea dna dlower his voice this pissed him off more so then my mom knew he was gunna blow so she was flippin and told me to go to my room then i kept calling my dad a joke..cuz every one makes fun of him even jess...and it gets on his nevers hes always saying hes a non eintity lol its really funny i pitty him.Anywho..i went down stairs and told my dad i was sorrie trying not to laff or smirk while i was doing so "daddy im sorrie i was just really mad" "i didnt mean it i swear i love you" ::gags:: well he bought it...then i said sorrie to my mom and she just laffed at me and i was allowed back on the computer..im such a bratt...and i suffer from really bad pms..no..i REALLY DO...like if you know me youll notice how ill spaze out every month around same time..huh...now you know why hehe...i think im gunna keep some midol at hand for now on.alright im out

alysinhxc @ 2001-09-22T12:26:00

2001-09-22T16:32:47Z

what do you do when you start to hate your friends cause they are so fucking fake?

i hate ppl

2001-09-22T16:31:26Z

I hate you..

blaherz

2001-09-22T15:44:17Z

hmm i feel better to day even tho i havnt been able to breath outta my nose for like a month..and hold up...read this shit.."fuck you al, after all we've been through. you always fuckin doubt, me...everything. you just told me yesterday that you were kinda kill yourself or run away, you told me not to expect to talk to you for a long time. what the fuck am i suppose to think. should i not believe you. were you just kiddin, haha very funny. you scared the shit out of me...i fuckin care for you so much, and all you do is doubt me. how you can say the things you wrote to me, i can't believe. how cruel can you be. i've always fuckin been here for you, in everything....every damn thing. remember all those guys, remember *******,remember the first time you told me about your problems. that doesn't mean anything? fuck you for doing this to me, fuck you for denying my love and care for you. i've been there for you time and time again, and all you can do is tell me how i wasn't there for you this time? i just heard the nite b4 you were gonna kill yourself and then you come to talk to me the next day. it takes a toll on a person. do you think words have no meaning, that you can say anything you want and take it all back the next day. life doesn't work that way. people get hurt by words, people have feelings al....feelings that produce emotion. when you smile, i'm happy...when you bitch, i try to help...when your sad, i try to make you laugh. that's what i've meant all this time. by you not understanding...you don't understand how much a person like me can care. i don't blame you for the way you've grown up, i don't hate you for the things you do or say. i try to understand what your going through and i do, a lot of it...cuz not only did i go through so much, i have best friends and relatives who've done the same. but when you doubt me, and when you say the things you said to me ....it broke my heart...broke my heart al. i resent you for saying such things to me. i didn't blow you off today, i was worried about you all nite goddamnit. and my emotion when i saw your name on my buddy list was uncontrolable. i just simply wasn't ready to talk to you.and the things you said i can't believe you have the gull and the nerve to say that to me after all this. i do care that you've gotten better...but i don't understand how you can go from wanting to kill yourself one nite and the next morning ,every's peach-keen. i'm tired of talking...i can't talk to you for a while, i need to think...i need to understand you...please understand, i'm not blowing you off...i'm absorbing everythin we've went through...cuz then and only then can i talk sensibly to you. i'll talk to you in a couple days....i'll im(call) you....if you wanna talk then im me back, but if you don't ignore me and never talk to me again. i should never talk to you again, after everything u've put me through, but it's in nature to forgive esp the ones who mean well and the ones you love. it's your choice. and even though you might not talk to me again...i hope to god you understand my message in this email. best wishes and greatest regards. your friend, your brother, your love....me.

hmm that has to be the biggest load of bull shit ive ever herd what the fuck is wrong with him? i cant help that i have fucking bad days...he says he understands me but yet...he just pushes me away even more..im about to just give up on him i really dont care anymore esp when it comes to him...he thinks were so fucking perfect for each other when we arent!we are so doffrent from each other its not even funnie.i told him i loved him...i shouldnt of done that..i guess some times i use that word to freely for all i care right now he can go fuck some big beastly guy and die.but nope im not gunna let he fuck up my day cuz im in a good mood so you know what...he can kiss my ass!!!!!!!!!

alysinhxc @ 2001-09-21T23:28:00

2001-09-22T03:33:40Z

bens hot.

i feel like shit

2001-09-22T03:31:25Z

Ahh to day has been just i dont know not bad..but yet..in the way of every thing...my mom is a total fucking spaz i was on the phone she started flipping out on me..then she was supose to go to this kids house for me to pick up the tickets for the tla show next sunday and she started bitchin bout that..i made her feel bad so shes going tomorrow.Im making that bitch go by her self to..im so fucking sick..my leg kills i dont know why..my back hurts...my neck hurts..my head hurts...my nose is fucking cloged..im high as fuck off of this cold meds.and on top of every thing im on my period isnt life just so fucking dandy?!